jeudi, septembre 02, 2004
- Confessions of a DB -no.. not DragonBoater.. Dedicated Bummer.. HAhahahaaa..
Ok.. i admit.. instead of keeping the house clean & tidy, spick& span, i've turned the whole place into a pig sty.. Even the kitchen.. i reallie surprise myelf sumtimes.. HAhaha..
Neways, i have a job interview set up for fri at 11.. gonna work at Procter & Gamble.. hAHhaa.. finally, me getting a job..
To all those out there who harbour pre-conceived notions tat i'm a no good ne'er do well slacker, I am NOt..
i MAY (the word is MAY) come across as lazy bones bummer who eats all day and refuses to clean the residence, ok.. I Am SUCH.. ahahha.. but its not like i haven tried for jobs and stuff.. its just tat i'm too picky.. musn't deduct cpf.. must be near my area.. must fulfill for at least 75% of my checklist.. hAHhaa.. hey.. at least i can come out and admit my shortcomings..
So AnYway, i'm up for an interview so keep ur fingers crossed for me ya..
Ok.. On to other issues.. 've been thinking a whole lot the past few days, er.. weeks tat i've been resting.. thinking of school, frends, relationships (tat nv happened), life and ambitions..
till now, i'm still unable to come up with an affirmative route of life..
About music, its still top priority.. abt journalism, i've decided to totally and i mean thoroughly GIVE IT UP.. i must admit, its a dirty job... Is the News broadcasted to one and all true and honest.. is there integrity behind the reports..
Unfortunately, the answer is NO.. like i said, it is indeed very unfortunate.. but its a dirty world out there.. *sigh* to think tat i refused to accept it untill i read a book and wept..
now tat i've come to terms with reality, i'm totallie shunning this profession..
So, one ambition down and no more to go.. onli 've got music to pursue, of which i can't for many reasons..
My life's at crossroads now.. in fact, multiple crossroads.. its like the path i take leads to a dilemma and another and yet another.. ahhhhhhhhh.. how??
to tell you the truth, i've been thinkin abt this for a long long time already but i'm still unable to come up with concrete plans..
i derive comfort (read: escape from reality) from having my daily dose of sesame street.. haha.. yes.. call me childish or wadever u want.. but in my opinion, the characters in this very informin, educatin and entertaining hour long show are very much more mature than the pple u meet in real life..
i digress.. sumtimes i wunder if pple actuallie read wad i write at all.. even if they do, do they fully or rather, CAN they fully comprehend what i'm talking abt.. but heck.. life goes on and so, i type on..
Anyways, after the very intensive thinking process that i went thru the last few weeks, i'm decided to dedicate my time to putting smiles on pple's faces.. brightening up their days.. in other words, make the pple around me happier.. if the pple around me are happy, i;d be happy too..
Be not mistaken.. a saint i'm not trying to be..
I'm just being myself..
Now tell me.. what guy in a right frame of mind would want a complicated, noisy, eigmatic, incessant girl like me??
Yes.. i've been mocking myself..
Now show me the guy..
Chlarie at 2:58 AM